The reason I'm going to wait.

My friend keeps reminding me "move on Gerald.  Just accept that it's over.  You have to have this mindset that she's never coming back to you, because she told me doesn't want to".  I was denied when I took the chance again and cried more than I ever did if you combine my 20 years of living.  Yet, I let her keep the pendant I got for her birthday even though I literally wanted to throw it in road after that.  After thinking and having all the tears pour from my eyes, I'm doing alot better. MUCH BETTER.  I'm still attached and I'm still holding on to a very tiny thread of hope, but its that little amount I need.  For some reason, the Korean movie of "My Sassy Girl" has been motivating me immensely.  The guy in the film was just so chivalrous and romantic.  And what keeps getting to me is that they promised each other that will meet in two years with different ideals, different personality, and a possibly a different feeling toward one another- stronger than ever or forever separated.  "Destiny is building a bridge of fate for the one you love".  If we ever do cross paths again, maybe I hope she sees the deep feelings for her.  As of now, I might just start to practice what she was passionate about.  I can start to practice arts and crafts, learn how to paint, learn how to subliminally become closer to her.  It'll take a while before I can comfortably talk to her again without letting my raw emotions sync in, but I'm going to find a way to get closer to heart whether these actions are witnessed.  I'm going to wait, because waiting for that day I can call you mine again is what's keeping me happy :) <3